Knot Inside

Fading into corners, breath held too tight Shadows pull me under, out of the light Eyes dart like I can't quite catch Words tangle in my chest A silent clash, a sizzling clash Smells will crawl across the room feel like a test I shrink into a self afraid to confess Hands tremble on the glass, pulse racing wild Every laugh, loud girl, frightened, hidden child All is not inside, inside, twisting me slow Show waves crashing, no weights wasting Nowhere to go, hide in the quiet Where no one can see heart screaming run but dying But feet won't flee anxiety's grip So I'm not afraid I'm not afraid Soft and unkind, dreaming of peace In the space I can't find Emotive blur together, a swirling sea Phrases rehearsed, now lost inside me One step forward, then back to the wall Voices overlap, I start to fall I fall, wishing for courage That never arrives In crowded rooms, I'm barely alive Oh, this night Not inside, inside, twisting me slow Show waves crashing, no weights crashing Nowhere to go, hide in the quiet Where no one can see, heart screaming Run but dying, but feet won't flee Anxiety's grip, soft and unkind Dreaming of peace in the space I can't find Maybe someday I'll break through the haze Speak without shaking, meet their gaze But tonight I'm a ghost in my own skin Floating unseen where the chaos begins One deep breath, hold it, let it unwind Find a small spark in the fear I can't fight Oh, this not inside, inside, twisting me slow Show waves crashing, no weights crashing Nowhere to go, hide in the quiet Where no one can see, heart screaming Run but dying, but feet won't flee Anxiety's grip, soft and unkind Dreaming of peace in the space I'll one day find Fading into corners Breath soft and light Shadows of the past Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night Shadows release me into the night